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Ryuuzaki-san's dark past.

Thu Aug 13, 2009, 12:48 PM
  • Mood: Neglect
  • Listening to: Disturbed-Remember
  • Reading: Your mind(It's pretty messed up)
  • Watching: Stalking you
  • Playing: Footsie
  • Eating: CrAyOnS
  • Drinking: Bleeding Hearts
I thought I was over this already. Yet it comes back to haunt me everytime something gets a little better. Not to mention I can't deal with it right now. I suffered 5 years without you. Someone who I can trust. Someone who made me feel loved. This might seem weird to you... but ever since I lost my grandmother, things kept going downhill for me. Indeed, she raised me. My mom? I feel like she was never really there for me. Nor, my father. They divorced when I was 5. But I remember standing in the empty room crying. I keep recalling that moment. You know how much it hurts knowing that my dad has a family? A young girl and a lover. I keep believing he loves them more then me. I delt with not having a father because I had my brother, my mother, and my grandma. Then. I lost my brother. He hates me. He said I was always daddy's little girl. I kept saying "It's okay, I still have mommy, and grandma." But, I didn't have mom. She was always busy wither her boyfriend(s), never really paid attention to us. Then mom left to come to America. Then I really lost her too. I know I was little so I really didn't understand why I was without my mom or dad. So all I did was cry. Mom left us for 7 years. I was left with my alcoholic grandpa and uncle. and of course grandma whom I loved. I loved her like no other. She was more like my mom then my real one. When I was 11 she died. Then It was over. I felt so alone and empty. Still do, and I'm almost 16. My brother still acts like he hates me, he pushes us away(espesually now that he has a girlfriend) my mom...(right now she is watching Micheal Jackson) she doesn't trust me, cause I told her boyfriend she cheated on him. Yet they are still together, fighting every day. She still doesn't spend any time with me, even if we do she blames me for everything. Past relationships and so much more. I'm still alone. You know who my best friend is? My diary. Pathetic. Right? I cannot trust anyone no matter how nice and loyal they seem. I learned that the hard way. But I love my online friends =) So far I've never been betrayed online.
Thank You.
I Don't Know What To Do. I know that some have NO family. I know my life isn't all that bad. But it still hurts.
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Fan-Fictions


Tittle ~*~Cut
Genre ~*~ shounen-ai/Yaoi
Pairing ~*~ AxelxRoxas/RikuxSora
Description ~*~ Roxas thinks life is dull and the only reason he's alive is because of his brother Sora. What happens when they meet Axel and Roxas. Will Roxas ever stop cutting himself just to make sure he's alive? Will Axel make him feel alive?(I suck at descriptions but the story is good.)Story--> [link]


Tittle ~*~ Christmas With The Uchiha's
Genre ~*~ shounen-ai/Yaoi
Pairing ~*~ ItachixSasuke
Description ~*~ A little christmas special between the two brothers... mm HOT! 2 shot--> [link]


Tittle ~*~ Love Note
Genre ~*~ shounen-ai/Yaoi
Pairing ~*~ RyuuzakixRaito
Description ~*~ Raito gets beeten up but a hero rushes in and takes him to the hospital When they acctually meet Raito thinks he is annoying but then Ryuuzaki-san takes him to his house because Raito gets hurt again they- oops can't say more! Read it! Story --->[link]


Tittle ~*~ Notice me
Genre ~*~ Shounen-ai/Yaoi
Pairing ~*~ Sasunaru
Description ~*~ Naruto liked Sasuke for a long time but so has Sasuke. One day Naruto tells his parents he is Homosextual and there is truble heading this teen lifes' way. He gets beeten and raped! Sasuke save him! Story ---> [link]

Tittle ~*~ RenIchi Interviews SasuNaru
Genre ~*~ shounen-ai
Pairing ~*~ SasuNaru RenIchi
Description ~*~ Fun episodes Story --->[link]

Tittle ~*~ Scream!
Genre ~*~ Yaoi
Pairing ~*~ RenjixIchigo
Description ~*~ Renji has a major crush on Ichigo and one night he looses control, and rapes Ichi =p Oneshot ---> soon

Tittle ~*~ Affair
Genre ~*~ Shounen-ai/Yaoi
Pairing ~*~ SasukexNaruto
Description ~*~ On Sasukes birthday his friends invite Naruto. They both get drunk and get tangled up in alot of drama since Sasuke has a girlfriend. Story --->Soon

Tittle ~*~ After Midnight
Genre ~*~ shounen-ai/Yaoi
Pairing ~*~ RenjiwxIchigo
Description ~*~ Renji is teaching a group of highschool students in soul socity. But there is one kid who he has lots of truble with. Oneshot --->Soon

Tittle ~*~Koutou Gakkou
Genre ~*~ shounen-ai/Yaoi
Pairing ~*~ SasukexNaruto
Description ~*~ Naruto moves to Konoha to escape his drug-addict boyfriend, but he meets a guy named Sasuke who seems to give him alot of truble focusing on school. Sasuke you attention hogger XD Story --->Soon

Tittle ~*~ Caught!
Genre ~*~ shounen-ai/Yaoi
Pairing ~*~ TobixDeidera
Description ~*~ Tobi is a good boy! Is he? Muhahaha won't say more oneshot --->Soon

DO NOT SEND ME ANY SPAM MAIL! EVER! OR YOU'LL GET YOUR ASS BLOCKED!

~*~CLUBS~*~

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~*~Besties~*~

:iconaislinceivun: :iconfacerape: :iconstupidnoobface: :iconfellipatwins: :iconmissdaniibryarxx: :iconsasunaru654: :icongosangoku: :iconegyptianwings: :iconmrs-l: Love you all

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~EgyptianWings 1 day 4 hours ago
-pokes you and runs off-

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~rougethebat1096 4 days 3 hours ago
I miss you D: although I met another girl who loves KH. She's really... strange. But that's ok :D perhaps next year we'll see each other in the hall or something :meow: that would be pretty cool

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~LxRyuuzakiLOVE 3 days 6 hours ago
miss ya too D: and i shall steal you away and take you... to the senior lunch room XD

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~rougethebat1096 3 days 5 hours ago
Yayyyy~!

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~BraveShyguy 6 days 7 hours ago
Thanks for the favorite! :D

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~LxRyuuzakiLOVE Nov 10, 2009, 4:23:10 PM
ah I've seen em all. They are great =)

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*One-Sky-One-Destiny Nov 6, 2009, 2:31:43 PM
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